Yesterday was Crazy

So yesterday, I pretty much freaked out.

I felt like I was hyperventilating. My daughter was gone and possibly feeling bad. She was missing me. She was lonely. I was in a bad way. Completely freaking out. I think I had 4 glasses of wine. I definitely passed out early.

Today I started my period.

I hate hormones. I don’t usually freak out with hormones. I don’t usually cry. It’s been awhile… I probably cry maybe… once every two years. Maybe a little less than that. Sometimes I”ll have a little tear come to my eye. Like in Fault in our Stars. Just a little teary. Nothing full blown.

I’m pretty much a robot. I repress my feelings. I can’t help it.

I guess yesterday was one of those ‘Sky is Falling’ days, as my friend says.

I am still darn excited to see my baby tomorrow. I think I just have more perspective today.

Note to self: Carefully watch the calendar next year when I plan camp….